Past Tense:

You know how people say the eyes are a gateway to the soul? You can look someone in the eyes and feel like you've known them, since forever. You can look at someone...and...fall in love...I just fell in love.

I never knew what love felt like before. At least not in this way. It just felt right. But I suppose it was wrong. Oh, so wrong. One look into his eyes and I just knew. There was no reason until a bunch of random things started to flood my mind. Everything was perfect....until it wasn't. You told me you love me to. Until the day you didn't. I thought our souls were intertwined, but you...you deceived me. You made me a fool, you took this as a joke and played my heart like a bored game. Yet, I still love you, Loved...loved... I loved you. past tense...love...loved...and you had my heart attached to strings, for a while it made me feel like I was on top of the world to be with you. But suddenly you, you dropped me. After making these promises with me. You were my kindred spirit but I suppose it was all an act. We fell off, then you saw me and I saw you and in that moment we were strangers. I didn't know you and you didn't know me. I've forgotten you because it was easier than dealing with the excruciating pain that you left me with. To pick up, to clean up, to fix up the mess you've created. When I saw you again, your skin was pale instead of tan, your eyes were dark and dual instead of that beautiful bright hazel color I remember seeing when you turned back at me with the smile I love...loved...loved...the smile I loved...love...loved. Plastered all over your face. My heart dropped to the grown and shattered because I felt your pain and you aren't my mess to clean up anymore yet I'm going to try. Because unlike you I keep my promises and I promised you, that you can never push me away.

"I'm sorry fi I seem malicious but I can't be the one that saves you from you."

~Yours truly Katyana <3